Tuesday, July 10, 2012

The Moon, the Sea and Fireworks

"Moon River, wider than a mile
I'm crossing you in style some day
Oh, dream maker, you heart breaker
Wherever you're going I'm going your way
Two drifters off to see the world
There's such a lot of world to see
We're after the same rainbow's end
Waiting 'round the bend
My huckleberry friend
Moon River and me."

Moon River (1961) by Audrey Hepburn

I'm in love. That felt so good to finally say out loud. I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love!

I'm truly, madly, deeply in love. And it's not the solemn, dignified sort of love I'm in. It's unbalanced, giggly, and giddy. I am all impulses and nerves. There are butterflies in my stomach and tingles at the ends of my hair - and I am always on the verge of an impending heart attack. I'm a wreck and a mess, and I'm loving every goddamn second of this beautiful, beautiful madness.

I have no idea what happened, but it did. It was simultaneously unexpected and yet, felt so very inevitable. Like two trains on a collision course. Like destiny. It's a touch of fate and a lot of explosions. Oh, no words dreamed in all of philosophy and romance can describe the gravity of two lovers falling helplessly at one another! It's contradictions and paradoxes. It's so wrong that it's right, and so right that it's wrong again. There were words. Lots of words. Words that dance, twirl, and skip at the edges of what we are dying to feel. Then we find ourselves in a place we must have been heading to all our lives, an impersonal stranger of a city that does not see, does not hear - and we suddenly lost all need for words.

Crazy Cat Lady
My Crazy Cat Lady™.

We eloped for a day and a night from where our days were heading apart and found ourselves walking out hand-in-hand to sea where jellies dream and pipe-fishes weave under the waves. There were inexplicable fireworks flowering in the starry sky, celebrating an occasion that neither of us recognise. The brightest moon rose from the south and painted a radiant silvery river which rippled on the tremulous water, watching us as we were watching it. We talked about us because nothing matters more. It was a night of longing and possibilities and tomorrows. You told me that one day, I'd find someone who would want to be my manic pixie dream girl. You said there's going to be a day when she would walk into my life and show me what I've been missing all along, eclipsing every pretender I have ever met. Oh, little did I know you were talking about you.

And we ended our lives then and there so we may have new ones -two faithless souls taking a leap of faith together into the ever after. Yes, it can be that simple, Baby Doll, and you know it.

Crazy for Cheryl,
k0k s3n w4i


Audrie said...

I've been stalking your blog ever since I discovered it, so here is a complete stranger being genuinely happy for you. This is a beautiful post!

nicoletta said...

happy for you! may it last.

and...ah! new kategories.

WQ said...

i'm happy for cheryl! be nice to her, if not i'll rip you up into tiny pieces and feed you to mikey :p

cheryl's friend, WQ

SowYau said...

eh k0k, betul ke u ni!

I read your latest saccharin-laced entry, line after line, suspiciously expecting something that is oppose to "yes, I have fall in love!" at the end of the blog.

I am very glad I was proven wrong.

anonymous #2 said...

my cats approve. they get extra fresh fish tomorrow. me? having a stiff shot of mei kuei lu to celebrate.

ap said...

Awesome possum! Oh, have a listen of Bill Callahan or Smog, I was zening out to his album Sometimes I Wish I Were An Eagle today and thought I gotta recommend it if u havent already heard, his songs are like random trains of thought and snarky poetry, check out the video for I Feel Like the Mother of the World

Terri said...


i mean, i love it! *grabs the popcorn* but this post is going to be SO EMBARRASSING if it doesn't work out.

Anonymous said...

Just wanna say..thank you :)


k0k s3n w4i said...

Audrie: thanks! and don't be a stranger now - i like to talk to my readers :D

nicoletta: singular. i had a misplaced comma and it split it into two. and thanks!

WQ: i've heard so much about you already :) don't worry. i'm going to be taking good care of her. and mikey and sophie ;)

SowYau: life's finally coming around for me. thanks!

anonymous #2: cheers! i don't do shots, but i'm having a black russian right now.

ap: i kinda liked my little airport so i'm going to trust your taste on this again.

Terri: oh please, you have written more soppy stuff about brendan before! and it's not about worrying whether something will work out or not. it's about how you feel. i am so full of cheese these days.

cheryl: no, thank you, beautiful.

yuhhui said...

congrats!! really happy for you!! ^^

hobson-jobson said...

So who's Phoebe now? Eh, you are going to ask "WTF, never heard of her"? Men, we are all the same!

Jen said...

I cringed a little, but in a good way. So when's the baby shower?

Anonymous said...

So u idolise her as your Audrey Hepburn from 'Breakfast at Tiffanys' cos that's where 'Moon River' became famous.

SowYau said...

how come no one ask k0k how did he come to know and fall head over heels with Crazy Cat Lady™ AKA Cheryl? hey k0k if u are not too busy having the best time of your life, u dont mind share the story with us ar?

Anonymous said...

Dr kok has no time to tell us stories now that he's doing the manly things to keep his gal happy, faithful and uncomplaining. Do male doctors make the best lovers?

Anonymous said...

congratulation man, hope will be forever. She look nice

Anonymous said...

Reality has just sunk in for me. Congrats to the both of you!! Btw, I'm Cheryl's friend Belinda.

Be happy and do take good care of my dear friend, doc~ Else, I'm on the same page as WQ.

Best wishes,
Belinda (Cheryl's friend)

Anonymous said...

Looks like WQ and Bel have said it already, but no harm saying it again. Be nice to Cheryl or else! Truly happy for you both, wishing you both a lifetime of happiness!

I'm Cheryl's friend, Mag.

Rewarp said...

First the Higgs-Boson, now this. You are really making me miss the Internet, because every time I return, something big happens.

The cynic in me, well, you probably know what he thinks. I wish you and Cheryl the best.

habis said...

No update from dr kok for 3 weeks! Does this mean he finally found what he has been missing - the love of a good woman to soothe his angst, insecurities, obsessions etc ... hence to hell with blogging cos nothing beats the written word than the healing hand, the whispering tongue etc ... So can we say good bye to DR Kok and his blog? It was a good thing while it lasted. Amen!

k0k s3n w4i said...

yuhhui: thanks :)

hobson-jobson: phoebe who?

Jen: i didn't knock her up if that's what you're asking :P

Anonymous #1: nope. i just like the song.

SowYau: secret, haha.

Anonymous #3: ask cheryl.

Anonymous #4: thanks :)

Belinda: will do, ma'am. don't you worry ;)

Mag: thanks! and thanks for the threat too! haha

Rewarp: thanks, man. if it's any consolation, i didn't see it coming either. this, and the higgs.

habis: never!

Batangala said...

i don't know how i happened to drop into your blog. i know i am not the first to greet you. Congratulations!